April 7, 2020

Threads of Life

The word 'thread' has a somewhat new meaning in our culture of emails and social media today, describing the continuous comments or replies of a conversation online. The thread connects to a primary twitter, facebook or other social post or an ongoing email sent back and forth.

But what about threads in our lives? It's not a new concept, this idea of threads that weave in and out of our life, shaping and influencing us into who we are or who we're becoming. And what would these so-called threads be?

I believe they include the experiences of events and people both good and not so good, or bad, that have made their way into our life's journey. They are the past and the present. The hurt and the joy.

But I believe there is more than this though, that is weaved into our lives.

It's been a year now, last April 2019, since I had the opportunity to share at our church's women's event and again a few weeks later for Mother's Day Sunday morning service. My friend Lisa and I worked together creating the theme of the women's event based on this idea that had been on my heart. We called it, Behind the Tapestry.

The Tapestry is the threads of our lives. It's the telling of our story, both sides coexisting- one is of all the threads woven throughout our lives, an intermingling of hope, joy, struggle and pain, how it's effected us and how we've responded to it, while the other presents only a glimpse of the picture- that of how God has and is working in and through us right alongside all the threads that make up each of our stories.

I won't retell the whole talk here, however you can check it out and listen to the one from Mother's Day if you'd like- Watch it at this link.

But I do want to share what's on my heart now and revisit a few key statements from that message.

March 26, 2020

Time For A Drive!

"Let's go for a drive..." that usually means we need to have (and will have) some contemplative conversations...

Going for drives has been something Jeff and I have liked to do for a long time. No destination in mind, just drive, enjoy the scenery and talk. Typically it's when we need to look closely at what's going on in our lives and process what God may or may not be doing. Far too often it's to talk ourselves out of the pervasive thoughts to walk away and quit everything.

Well that was blunt. Ministry life is hard friends. And I'm afraid most do not fully understand or realize just how hard it can be.

Just a few weeks ago we found ourselves out for a drive...pondering a difficult situation.

June 28, 2017

Fond of The Dark..?

I'm not quite there yet. Fond of the dark? Not really. But this dark, the one I speak of, I believe I can be, the more I realize how much love was behind it. 

This dark season, the one I've named in jest, the Crash of 2016, the one that I'm now moving more out of and on to the other side than being in the middle of the deepest darkest pit...it's this dark that I speak of. 

Re-engaging with my blog a week ago after a two and half year absence, I told you a little about where I've been. I've been hiding for sure. Isolating and backing away more and more sending me deeper and deeper into the night... When it became so dark I couldn't see anymore, I finally sought help and about 3 weeks into my counseling he asked me a question... 

What if I could become grateful for this season? Wait.

June 21, 2017

A Life Interrupted

Life interrupted. The phrase stirs a variety of meanings for each of us doesn't it? With every one as unique as the next.

December 16, 2014. That's the last time I posted anything here on my blog. Ironically, the subject of that post speaks more loudly to a place where I found myself in the months following than I could have ever imagined. Though I spoke truth in my writing, truth that I deeply believed, I soon lost all focus and any grip I had left, drowning in a sea of darkness like I've never experienced in my life. I allowed the very thing, the very truth I wrote with my most earnest stance, to be forgotten in the trail of my dust as I forged ahead in my own strength, leaving behind the presence of my Savior as I chose to walk through difficulties and pain without Him by my side. All because I refused to choose His way. I thought I had it all together, but when I decided that, although somewhat subconsciously, my way was better, it would culminate in what I now fondly(?) refer to as the Crash of 2016 - a year long journey through deep depression and anxiety...

December 16, 2014

Who Are We Really Hurting?

“Oh, He even sees me in the dark!"

This took my breath away when I heard it.

From a very familiar Psalm only read from a different version than I'm used to using. 

While my church's current series, Christmas Lights, is truly resonating with many, it is not for some. Or is it? As we take a look at the true light (Christ) that illuminates our life, who brings light into our dark places, we have a choice to make.

November 13, 2014

In The Forgetting - A Reflective Prose

In the forgetting...this.

I forget the wonderful places I've been.
I forget the thoughtful gifts I've been given.
I forget that my needs have been met.
And I forget the loved ones who support me.

I forget the good and I forget the

November 11, 2014

What Am I Forgetting?

"The year from hell."

Not exactly the most inviting title for a blog post (and why I did not use it) nor is it the greatest opening line. Though it's what I, somewhat jokingly, have dubbed it, it has at times felt like it. It's what I'd like to forget. I have often wished it would just be over.

But will it? Oh, the year will of course end, but will its struggles, tough circumstances and the never ending stress over one thing then the next... and when there's so much, even the joyful things of life can become overwhelming. But will they cease? Or yet, even slow down?

Well, the year may end, but the new one begins with an illusion of false hope and its promises of fresh starts and second chances that this next one might just be better. Or will it?

June 17, 2014

True Joy is Possible

"I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete." 

I was given the privilege to speak not once but twice during my church's last series State of Mind. What a humbling opportunity. (Read about my Hope message)

If you know me at all then you know this is not the typical me but it's the God-changing me. It's the me that wants to do my best to say, "Yes, Lord." and to surrender to His leading. It can be and is a daunting step of faith to say yes to whatever opportunity He may give, however, it's been said that joy is born from obedience.

May 14, 2014

Encouragement Ignites Hope

"Hope is an assured promise whereas faith is acting out that promise.
Faith is hope put into action." 

While he was working at home studying yesterday, Jeff and I took a couple "breaks" to sit outside for a chance to enjoy the fresh air and during those times we had a few enthusiastic discussions as he shared his thoughts and insights for the upcoming message this Sunday, State of Mind - Anxiety. 

We are very excited about the impact that this series has the potential of having. Though a tough subject, and sometimes even taboo, we believe the conversation is much needed as indicated by the many folks that expressed their appreciation this past Sunday in the first week of the series.

God wants to heal us. He wants to walk with us through whatever it is that we are struggling with. He wants to help us. He wants us to believe Him so He can help us.

April 21, 2014

The Day After Easter & Thinking About the Best Part

I woke up this morning still thinking about our Good Friday and Easter services over the past weekend. I am overwhelmed by God's goodness...indeed, how He blesses us!

The energy and excitement was contagious! Best of all, much of it was coming from our regular attenders and members across all campuses, not only from the staff! That was greatly encouraging, but it wasn't the best part.

The music was stellar, leading us to worship and celebrate the God who is alive and saves us with sincere and joy-filled gratitude. That was deeply moving, but it wasn't the best part.

The messages, from my favorite pastor, were dynamic, insightful, inspiring and challenging. They were thought provoking and convicting, but it wasn't the best part.

February 26, 2014

Out of the Blue ~ Pt 2

NOTE: I have had this blog post written for a couple weeks now but held off publishing because I just didn't like it. Something didn't feel quite right. So I waited....

I don't want to just write words without purpose or least of all for my own purposes. I want to write them out of the overflow of my relationship with God and foremost for His purposes- to serve Him, not myself.

So, here's my revision, with a heart to serve and a prayer that the privilege He has given, will encourage others...

February 5, 2014

Out of the Blue ~ Pt 1

My dog, Ginger, has been expressing some symptoms 
to the likeness of SAD (seasonal affective disorder or seasonal blues). It's pretty sad (couldn't resist the pun) when you can identify sadness in an already melancholy dog. 

Our dogs generally stay outside most of the day and sleep in the garage at night. However, the rigid cold temperatures this winter have brought our mutts inside pretty much 24/7. So maybe Ginger is missing her time outside in the fresh air.